It didn’t take me very long ha!(age 30) to realize that most of the shenanigans I pulled in my earlier years, were mostly foolish. It was also around this age that I had the epiphany “my momma wasn’t just blowing smoke.” Now, I didn’t make bad choices on my own. I don’t totally buy into the psych hype that our choices are our own. My philosophy is that it takes two, or three, sometimes more to make a foolish decision. Oh I take full credit for the ones I made myself, and there were plenty.

Amongst the just plain dumb, funny, goofy behavior there were very callous, angry decisions made that stemmed from the hurt afflicted by others, but my actions then affected not only myself but those who loved me. When a person suffers from anger issues like I did, there were many times I acted out of anger and the outcome wasn’t pretty. For awhile that anger made me kinda popular. I was always looking for a way to “fit in” and so for a certain crowd this chic looked pretty cool, rolling around in the dirt fighting somebody over something as stupid as the “stink eye.” Thank you God for healing my anger! I’d look very uncool and actually down right hideous at my size and age rollin around in the dirt fightin somebody. Thank you God for changing my vision, cuz now if I ain’t wearin my bi-focals I can’t tell if someone is even givin me the “stink eye.”

I had deep seeded anger that I wasn’t fully aware of until later in life, but it stemmed from several facts;  I had been abandoned by my father, then experienced the tragic death of my step-father, had my brother leave home and never return, then rejected by the man I thought I was going to marry and spent several years being in various abusive relationships. I never thought I was loved by, or good enough for men. I’ve spent a lot of hours wishing I could take back the past. What I didn’t realize is that when I asked God to take my anger, I was taking charge of my future.

Do you ever wish you could take back your past? Has anger been a part of your life, your marriage, your family for years? Maybe you’re angry at God? Do you feel loved? Do you feel like you just aren’t good enough?
My hope is this, that if you are struggling with anger that you will take charge of your future and let God take your anger from you.
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