Nothing thrills me better than a cool crisp morning, when I slip on a hoodie, grab my steaming cup of java and step out onto the patio. My senses become alive pretty quickly as I “sit’n’sip” watching the sun sneak it’s shiny head up through the clouds. I share my mornings, evenings, and myself with you. I’m a pretty open girl, and usually talk way too much, sometimes sharing information that most think TMI (too much information) and look for ways to get away from me! But, on my journey of life there are mistakes, sins and portions of my past that I have not yet shared, and possibly never will share with you. If you only knew, you very well might judge me. You would possibly call me a hypocrite, and not value anything else that I shared in my talks or on this blog. But I take that risk, and remain faithful to you in hopes that by sharing these things, you too will be encouraged in your journey.

So who is wrong and who is right? Am I wrong for not telling you everything bad about my past/present/future? If you call me a hypocrite..Are you wrong? This question comes to me after reading last night, about Josh Duggar.

Do you know why I’m a believer in Jesus Christ? Well….I’ll just tell you (snicker). At a tender age of 9 at church when the minister finished teaching, I walked the isle to receive Christ as my personal Lord and Savior and to be baptized….I was fearful of going to Hell when I died. I didn’t understand yet, what if fully meant to be a follower of Jesus. I was still a sinner after I came up out of the water, but the bible says that after accepting him my sins of the past, present and future were washed clean and I had the promise of eternal life in Heaven. I am ashamed to say that I still sin, but I’m human, I’m not perfect. I was also young and just starting my journey of living out my faith. I am still at 51 grasping what God wants me to know….and that is that HE loves me, accepts me and that I can trust HIM and HIS promise that I will one day live with HIM in Heaven. I do boast about this, brag on it, rejoice in it and every day am grateful to HIM because I am a sinner and do not deserve this forgiveness or love or his grace. I don’t brag or boast about me, I just share me with you. Faith is a journey. You don’t just wake up perfect and whole every morning. Why do you think I drink coffee, it makes me a better person hahaha. (honestly, it’s the vanilla not the coffee) Every day I wake up, I surrender myself and all the ugliness about me to HIM and HE works in me refining me. If I didn’t do this daily, and told you that I did…..then I am a hypocrite. But just because I am a believer in Jesus and still have struggles with sin doesn’t make me or any other believer a hypocrite.

I hope you’ll join me….on the patio and share your comments, thoughts and questions here after this post or in my email…juliemahan63@yahoo.com or on Facebook.

“Lord, we realize we are all sinners, you know all about us and still want us, may we all come to know you and accept you. In Jesus name Amen.”